the start of the hols was busy already. its all ncc!!! cameron, ncc acts, charlie outings, ake, mugging gsk, and spec course is coming!!!! everyday it is ncc!!!!!! omg i better start doing my hw.. but today have to mug gsk!!!!!!!!!! arghh i missed almost all the lessons when the specs taught gsk omg i am quite dead. cos of physics remedial, physics prac, sick and everything ): sian. i hope i can pass tmr's gsk tests. though i doubt so.. cos the more i tried memorize the more confused i got D; arghh. how i wish i can be like weely or some smart ppl, read a few times then can remember almost everything alrdy O: so good. i have to keep writing and reading and copying everything as many times as possible but i still keep mixing up the informations. and i realised i dont have any notes of codes and conducts for specs and cadets at all. and i think specs never teach before or maybe is i missed the lesson. sian kay gg alrdy/ so jiayou me

i think teachers are seriously very annoying!!! they jump to conclusions without getting facts right and still there anyhow spread false info!!!! -.-

and after talking to ah geok just now, i seriously thought about it and realised some people are really quite foolish. to get power and seem very pro, she can make use of the people around her and even her best best best friends-.- i look down on her. what happened to her basic moral values.. now that everyone hate her, idk if i should pity her or something?? but at the end of the day, i realised she got nothing. hmm or maybe nothing much. its not worth it isn't it?! cos you get nth and people still hates you and everyone knows how bad you are.. i thnk it is seriously quite dumb ): so i thinking i must never be like her. i must learn what is actually important and meaningful and what is not so i actually wont waste my time and effort on things that is not worth that much(: though it makes you proud or happy but will soon come to an end and ppl might not even rmb much about it/
its just for the glory of that few moments.