hmph! D;

omg. i dont like my heck care attitude. esp to studies. i fail so much tests yet i still can laugh like nth had happened. maybe i should be more serious. i think i have to. results is one thing bothering me. but there are a lot of other things too. like ncc and friends. i am afraid because of my heck care and sucky attitude... i dont know how esp the ppl around me and my best friends can stand me. like Jamie, val, Jieli, nicole, vc. these are the ones who have been able to ta han me for the longest. jasmine and hui geok and shu ying too. that time ncc chalet we talked about it already. i ask them why they can still tahan me and be friends with me even though they and myself know i had a disgusting attitude. cos i got mood swings and very hot tempered. and i always heck care about a lot of things cos i am so lazy i didn't bother to do anything. yet they still can be such good friends with me. i lost a lot of goodd friends already. and now we could hardly talk till we really laugh hard. i want to change my attitude. i dont want to risk losing more friends. i am just afraid my friends and everyone around me will find me irritating and walk away, walk out of my life. i dont want to be alone plz! T.T