我没有想像中那麼堅強.

hmm sorry chua if i made you really worried today. haha hmm maybe i should really chill. and just take a step a time. but i need a break i really need a break. chua, can you lend me your shoulder for once. but i think there might not be the time. i should just carry on with life and see what is coming down.

kay i opt out from running tmr. i really dont have the energy already. i am too tired. but not sure i am in frisby anot. but if yes, i not sure i can tahan anot.

NCC is really more than a cca to me. its the only thing i will never bear to part with. and also the thing pulling me up from going backwards.it just gives me a little more confidence,esp after every sweaty act. i dont really know how to descibe the feeling of it. though i may dread act sometimes bcos of the tiring day of lessons but at the end of the act i always somehow get less moody. it calms my heart haha sounds weird but i love that feeling(: heh and i am afraid that when we all become specialists i will miss being a cadet. i cant believe i am coming to the of a cadet life in ncc. i hope i will never forget the feeling of being a cadet. a proud cadet in NCC(: