wtf! kay i trying not to use anymore vulgarities but this will be the last few times! cos i haven't even open my eyes in the morning and you started annoying omg! can you get lost plz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i felt so irritated. i might go crazy if this continues -.- pissed off to the max!!!!!!! i totally cant talk in human language now when i look at your FACE!!! -.-

blogging is getting really boring. man. i will be really busy this hols. but now i just dont feel like doing anything. the whole day i am just reading LOL so sian. i want to go out. and i have to go sch to get my hw if not i cant do anything/ thought i am suppose to be hardworking this hol. arghh haii i want to go do cip leyyy joy faster contact me!!!!!!!!(: hehe omg!!!!! and i want class outing and charlie outings tooooooo!!!!!!! can we go mug gsk together charlie? lucky got ncc on tues :D haha i am rotting at home.... ): though i quite scared act will be very hiong. arghh kay and i quite scared of specs course!!!!!!!!!!!!! better study gsk gskgsk gsk gskgsk D; hmph. kay i am going to eat bye!!!! and i think i eat too much already -.-

omg yo people i am blogging from my phone hehe so cool but quite hard though cos my phone is not those touch screen type. but still, this is AWESOME kay haha i am going to watch bai quan nv wang now bye(:

hey charlie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the part of us are back from CAMERON HIGHLANDS!!!!!!!!!!! :D awesome trip! i love you two womans ALI and GER! i think i will really miss the keesiao us! must always remember the COOL ROOM 223 :D our cosyy cosy room(: anw the trip was quite cool. i bought a lot of things for the CHALIE GIRLS and DEAR TABLE MATESSSSS and CLIQUE :D i bet your misss me a lot when i am not around!!!! hahaha and throughout the june hols i got a lot of camps to so very hard to meet ley ):nvm digress already. kay anw i just woke up after unpacking and bathing when came back. the first day of the trip was nice. i like the long bus rides(: cos we can bitch about ppl, play lame games, go crazy, sing songs, do cheers and sleepppppppp. then we check in. ate dinner. and i conclude then Charlie are quite PIGS. we eat a lot seriously O: haha. blah blah kay la lazy say everything. but third day we went to climb a hill that is like a mountain -.- it is really like climb using our four lims la. haha but when we were somewhere around the top it was very pretty and cool!!!!! and the last day we went shopping. and then ahem bought ahem a very cute toy!!!! omg so sweeeeeet leyyy!!! haha kay this is so random idk what i typing alrdy LOL anw, everyone was totally keesiao throughout the whole trip!!!!!!! i ate so much i think i am growing fat!!!! or maybe tall :D i think i will really miss this trip esp the time when Charlie entered room 223 those few nights (: and others like 207, 266 and 268 :D ahahaha..... kay i lazy cont. think this post is really messy!!!! but nvm(: its sweet to CHARLIE(:

Bon Voyage! my dear Charlie company mates who are going for cameron highlands or other stuffs(: yay we seriously have to enjoy ourselves to the max before specs course!!!!!! then mug really hard for gsk!!!!^^ jiayou(:

yay damn happy! i got a new phone! finally can say bye bye to my Laopok hp!!!!!! though i will miss it but plz it is really too annoying! wa bui ta han it. hehe but i lazy go save all the contacts and download music lehh. hmm maybe i come back from cameron highlands then settle bah (: oh and yes i am going off tmr le! only come back on friday! JieLi lets go kbox on friday!!!!!!!! but i scared i no money liao ): haii. nvm shall not care first^^ anw, i lazy pack my bag for cameron highlands leh.. like need bring a lot of things on the list but i dont feel like carrying so much things): hmm but i also scared forget bring anything then there so noob also cant buy then gg liao. haha kay anw i will try to but some sourvenirs if there is any(: yay we shall have great fun Charlie :D must go there and really play to the max!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D yay

i love Charlie to the max! yayyyyyy~!today's charlie dinner was finally getting better aka funner! :D hmm but i think this is a really sad week cos a lot of ppl are emo-ing ): so i will not D: though a lot of bad things happen. haii but i must not cry!!!!!!!!!! ahhhh kay Jiayou me! :D but i was quite scared of myself cos i think i am very fake. i can really put on fake smiles even when i am really going to diee. haii i think i am really scary.. i feel like a monster. how can anyone hide their feelings and pretend so well that nothing happen?! omg. kay anw i hope i will get back to normal. kay and i must tell JIAXIN, JASMINE, JAMIE, HUI GEOK, ALICIA, JIE LI, WEELY to CHEER UP KAY?! omg this is really a lot of people! hmm plz dont emo everybody must stay strong cos i will also! :D BUT IF YOUR GOT ANY MORE PROBLEMS CAN FIND ME AND TALK! or we can cry our hearts out together someday! LOL! haha just know that i will always be there for your(: (L) so CHEER UP PEOPLE! :D

我没有想像中那麼堅強.

hmm sorry chua if i made you really worried today. haha hmm maybe i should really chill. and just take a step a time. but i need a break i really need a break. chua, can you lend me your shoulder for once. but i think there might not be the time. i should just carry on with life and see what is coming down.

kay i opt out from running tmr. i really dont have the energy already. i am too tired. but not sure i am in frisby anot. but if yes, i not sure i can tahan anot.

NCC is really more than a cca to me. its the only thing i will never bear to part with. and also the thing pulling me up from going backwards.it just gives me a little more confidence,esp after every sweaty act. i dont really know how to descibe the feeling of it. though i may dread act sometimes bcos of the tiring day of lessons but at the end of the act i always somehow get less moody. it calms my heart haha sounds weird but i love that feeling(: heh and i am afraid that when we all become specialists i will miss being a cadet. i cant believe i am coming to the of a cadet life in ncc. i hope i will never forget the feeling of being a cadet. a proud cadet in NCC(:

我笑不代表我快乐.


life is hard. everything is just not going the way it should be. ahh. chua you must be strong! Jiayou! i will always be there for you! though you might find my shoulder too low-.- haha but it will always be free for you(: i will be strong so you dont have to be scared too HAHA yay :D i am so man!xD LOL kay just remember that you will never be alone. cos i think my life is quite screwed too. and probably a lot worse than yours if you actually didn't realised. so you dont have to worry(: just be more positive! must eat more hydrogen atoms to gain positive charge!!!! kay chem FTW! haha! :D

ysd gg campfire is fun! but it ended terriblyT.T hmm, hui geok thanks so much!! you're the best man! i dont know how we came so good when we are actually so different in many ways haha :D and i really like to talk to you esp like ysd. haii thanks a lot seriously!!!!!(: haii anw, dont really feel like saying what happened. haii and my life is seriously quite screwed up now.

梦 里 花Meng Li Hua

唯一 纯 白 的 梦 里 花
盛开 在 琥珀 色 月牙
就算 失去 所有 爱 的 力量
我 也 不 曾 害怕

天空 透露 着 微 光
照 亮 虚 无 迷惘
在 残 垣 废墟 之 中
寻找 唯一 梦想

古老 的 巨 石 想 象
守护 神秘 光芒
清澈 的 蓝色 河流
指引 真实 方向

穿越 过 风沙
划 破 了 手掌
坚定 着 希望 去 闯

唯一 纯 白 的 梦 里 花
盛开 在 琥珀 色 月牙
就算 失去 所有 爱 的 力量
我 也 不 曾 害怕

古老 的 巨 石 想 象
守护 神秘 光芒
清澈 的 蓝色 河流
指引 真实 方向

穿越 过 风沙
划 破 了 手掌
坚定 着 希望 去 闯

唯一 纯 白 的 梦 里 花
盛开 在 琥珀 色 月牙
就算 失去 所有 爱 的 力量
我 也 不 曾 害怕

穿越 千 年 的 石 板 画
刻画 着 永恒 的 天堂
轻轻 拭 去 漫 布 全 身 的 伤
我 从 不 曾 绝望

this song is awesome ttm!
i think Angela Zhang's song very nice (: HAHA
chua you must go listen :D

yay i was quite proud of myself to be really hardworking for 1day! today is slack. watching yi zhi mei and then later got GG campfire!!!!!! ahhhh i am going! definitely, to see chua dance omg haha! i will make sure you hear me laugh! no la no la, still got cough so cant. you lucky la.. HAHA kay, and i am dead broke now. owe a lot of people money. i am going to dieee. shall eat less next week. haii somemore June do many people birthday! but i bought present for you already, JASMINE TEO! you want to get it first?(: HAHA kay Wei Ni Jiayou!(:

omg!i think i am AWESOME! haha got 3day mc but still went sch today already cos i think everyone will really miss me if i dont go!!!!!!!(Y)(Y) haahha and i recieved 2letters when i reached sch! thankyou val jamie and yishan! i love you! :D anw, today math lesson was so FUN we played this FABULOUS GAME! :D omg i love king zong! and now he is like super good friends with my daddy?! they sms each other wth!!!!!!! LOL haha anw, today i completed my physics practical book and march hol assignment?! lol months late but at least i finally FINALLY did it haha! and i finished 5 overdue math assignments!!!! now left 3 more to go! GO GO GO AHHHHHHHH yes TOH WEI NI you are so awesome you can do it! i am such a hardworking girl TODAY! hope tmr is the same!LOL hahaha but i think i am back to my old self again! cos i am watching bai quan nv wang now! and my 3 math assignments is still waiting for me! arghh. haii but really cant make it le. nvm, today i have done enough!^^ so yay! :D and TAY JIE LI I DONT KNOW WHY I SUDDENLY FEEL LIKE SAYING THIS!!!!!!! &I HOPE IT WONT BOOST YOUR EGO TTM! BUT I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (:

i am dying. got high fever ysd till today morning so didn't go sch. aww man i miss math test and everyone said it was not tough at all. shit i mug so hard then in the end still had to fail my math. haii kay i hope i can go sch tmr!

mug mug mug mugging math!
last paper already! ahhhhhh! then can play!
haha i miss pool. and wed Charlie is going to mug GSK!!!!! ^^
looking forward and yay! but one sad thing..
i cant be parade commander already... ): cos i just got this very bad sore throat!
thanks so much to kh la wth -.-
haii but nvm la(: at least wont embarrassed myself in front of the whole school!!!!
hahaha kay Jiayou for math!
tmr mugging with Charlie too! cos no act ):
arghh i still miss pt though last act just had one LOL
hahah CHARLIE FTW! :D

i am now really looking forward more to NCC! but i am quite worried for all the tests like GSK. cos i really cant memorise things dieee. haii i want to be like people like wq and weely lehh! wahh. read one time only then can remember already!!!!!!! haii nvm, ah geok! after math we go mug gsk together! Jasmine Teo, you too!(: yay!

HAHA ysd act was MEGA fun! got changing parade! what i can remember, i think this is the first time we had changing parade and it was so FUN la! haha yay we cleared all the pumpings! now is like negative something haha!(: and then we had Charlie dinner again! but it is ahem.. yah,i see the same few faces everytime like mugging session & dinner. not that i am bored of those faces, just that i think is quite sad cos like that also not even half the Charlie there. i know for some of your your parents expect you to be home early after act and eat dinner together as a family. but maybe your can at least try to go a few times or at least ONCE! and the biggest thing that is some didn't even bother asking their parents. and everytime i ask you, its just sorry sorry i cmi. but this is not as bad as others that can make it just that you think going out with us is boring! ahem and next time if it is so, plz dont be so obvious la. kay nvm i just think everytime someone tries to plan activity for Charlie it will be really tiring and still turned out screwed. plz spare a thought for them leh ahhh nvm shall stop talking about this!

cos after Charlie dinner, me jasmine and wq went to buy mother's day present for our mothers(: LOL it was so funny cos i saw a lot of funny toys and ACTION CITY is a nice shop! i like the game that you hit the dont know what thing one! wapiang! mega fun la!!!!!!!!! haha and in the end when all the shops are closing then we bought something nice(: is at this gift shop idk the name. all the things inside very nice one! haha but now i no money liao sad life D: haha kay tmr is mothers day already!!!!!!!!! hope my mum like my present for her!!!!!!!!! is very nice lor! ^^ but in the end i reached home at like 11 then she was quite angry): cos i miss my bus stop! i alight the next stop and ran home. but in the end my mum still angry arghh so sad):

nvm the day still very happy(:
and tmr i am going mug math with tsy!(L)
and tues with Charlie!
yay last paper faster GET LOST!
i want to play.
very long never go play pool already!!!!!!
ahhh tjl!!!!!! haha

yes! today mugging session with Charlie owned. was really successful though the numbers were pathetic! i finished mugging 1 whole topic which i was totally clueless about it at first! ty to jamie the zai one! (: haha kay i going relax first then mug again later! i am in the mugging mood now! :D must pass chem this time! but i scared when i start on calculations... i might just diee or give upD: kay la Jiayou and all the best to everyone! and looking at people chionging for cca is really once in my lifetime! and damn shuang la! though i miss pt a lot! and SHU YING i hope you never forget to help me hand in my appraisal today. i realised i kinda tell the wrong person to help me^^ HAHA kay NO LA. just kidding only(:

aiyo i just wasted this whole weekend not revising chem. i am dead. i keep using com watching tv going out and eating. omg thats my life. i really forgot how to sit infront of my study table and mug. haii. i really must mug for chem. all other tests are screwed. no hope at all le. but first term my chem was the worst!D: got f9. haha! -faint-wth and i am putting all my hope in it. wahh quite ridiculous. haha! kay la. now i shall shut myself in the room away from tv and food. and put away my laptop and try to mug liao.kay jiayou. i must do it! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh! and happy birthday hui geok sorry i had to stay home cos my mum not feeling well. must be xiao shun and take care of her! so sad cant celebrate your bdae with you today! but think you will still have FUN la! cos there is still the gang of Charlie with you(: yay BYE :D

:X i just realised i left my chem file in sch. gg. omg i think i can only see what i can do with my exercise book already wth! ahhhhh and tmr is hui geok's bdae! yay lets party! haha. sorry clique i cant go K with your!):

蒲公英的约定
Dandelion's Promise

小学篱笆旁的蒲公英
十几英里有味道的风景
雾水草场传来她的声音
多少年后也开始很好听
将愿望折纸飞机寄出信
因为我们等不到那流星
等枕头坠离命运的引力
却不知道到底能去哪里

已经长大的约定 那样清晰
拿过到的我相信
说好要一起旅行
是你如今 唯一坚持的任性

在走廊想霸占她手心
我们却注意窗边的情敌
我去到哪里你都跟很紧
哼歌而梦在等待着惊喜

已经长大的约定 那样清晰
拿过到的我相信
说好要一起旅行
是你如今 唯一坚持的任性
已经长大的约定 那样珍惜
与你聊不完的曾经
而我已经分不清 你是友情
还是错过的爱情

kay ysd went out. i bought new sch shoes but i took a very big size cos my feet is still growing but i think i took really toooo BIG liao. omg nvm still nice la. and today i bet i will spent my day watching tv. shit haii chem how?! i really dont understand chem ttm. kay i will try studying a little later then go watch yi zhi mei. haha


and that born bitch is annoying me even more! get lost plz OUT OF MY SIGHT
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